Since I was 7 years old I have dreamed of being a writer. I have not written anything other than a blog since I was a teenager. Though I love my blog dearly, why have I never sat down and written out the novel that's been in my head since I was 13? Why have I never successfully finished participating in NaNoWriMo? Or tried to be published?
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| The day I received my scholarship in 2004. I was so excited-just not to have my photo taken! HA! |
I took a year off after graduating to work full time, which was a big mistake. I should have just gone straight to school and kept moving forward. By the time I finally tried college I was working 60 hour weeks to help support myself and my boyfriend in a little apartment in Ogden. Working 60 hour weeks and trying to go to school full time (12-18 credit hours were the same cost) to get the most out of your tuition is difficult.
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| A photo of me from 2006. |
About half way through both semesters I attempted, I broke under the pressure and quit.
I stopped attempting to go to school and just went into working full time or more. First in a restaurant, as a nanny, in a bowling alley, and in 2008 I was offered a better paying position in technical support. I have now been working in technical support for 5 years.
While I've been extremely grateful for the opportunity, the pay, the benefits, and for not smelling like a grease fryer any longer-what child dreams of being a Technical Support Representative when they grow up? Certainly not my wandering gypsy soul. Working in a cubicle every day is soul-sucking.
It's been extremely difficult lately to continue working all day in this little box. Not getting enough sunlight is depressing. Sitting on my butt all day and getting fatter and fatter is depressing. No options for career advancement is depressing. You get the picture.
I need a change, and in a big way. But I'm not leaving this good job for a job with less pay, less benefits, or in another technical support position. This is a good job, with a good company, and hey-I get to blog during the day. So the change has to be in a completely new direction, and I need a serious attitude adjustment in the meantime.
I confess that I filled out an application for Community College yesterday. The goal is to go to SLCC and get my Associates, and then transfer to the U to finish up my bachelors. I am going to go into Education, and go back to my original dreams of both becoming a teacher and a writer. In the meantime I'll keep working my job here (which should help pay for school) and I'll take a lighter class load until I get into the swing of things.
We'll see what happens, but this time it has to work out. My soul/heart/life/you name it depends on it. Now if I can only get over the stress about the fact that it will take me 4 years at the very least and I'm just now starting... blah.
I need a change, and in a big way. But I'm not leaving this good job for a job with less pay, less benefits, or in another technical support position. This is a good job, with a good company, and hey-I get to blog during the day. So the change has to be in a completely new direction, and I need a serious attitude adjustment in the meantime.
I confess that I filled out an application for Community College yesterday. The goal is to go to SLCC and get my Associates, and then transfer to the U to finish up my bachelors. I am going to go into Education, and go back to my original dreams of both becoming a teacher and a writer. In the meantime I'll keep working my job here (which should help pay for school) and I'll take a lighter class load until I get into the swing of things.
We'll see what happens, but this time it has to work out. My soul/heart/life/you name it depends on it. Now if I can only get over the stress about the fact that it will take me 4 years at the very least and I'm just now starting... blah.
Girl, I'm so proud of your for taking the steps to pursue your dreams. I wish you the all kinds of success!
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I know how you feel about the not writing part... It was my childhood dream, and here I am, almost 30, with nothing but a bunch of blog posts. I need to write those stories that have been whirling around in my head all these years... Good for you for going for it!! :)
ReplyDeleteLife is too short not to go for your dreams. Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured. Good luck. :)
ReplyDeletegood luck! :)
ReplyDeleteGood for you for taking steps to change and improve yourself. And take heart--you will be the one who wrecks the curve for all those kids in college.
ReplyDeleteI teach at a community college. There are so many people out there with your story, and it's great to see them take back their choices and pursue something they love! I wish you all the luck I have to give! You can do this!
ReplyDeleteThat is so great that you are going to go back to college and go for your dreams :) It's a huge step to take! Good luck and you can do this!!
ReplyDeleteso happy to hear you are pursuing your dreams way to go
ReplyDeleteIt is NEVER too late for new beginnings or change. I fully support getting back to your dream. And there are programs where you can be an assistant teacher while going to college, so you get practical experience that also counts as credits. You should check if UT has that.
ReplyDeleteIn terms of writing....you just have to make time, every day, to sit and write. Away from the internet. Away from the phone. Away from the chores and such at your house. Even if it's just 30 minutes, of you and the keyboard or paper and a latte.
You might want to do NaNo this year, to get your feet wet, and to know that you CAN do it. :)
Good for you! I'm looking forward to reading about your journey of going back to school :)
ReplyDeleteYAY! This is awesome honey!!! Congrats!! I love you and support you fully!
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Thanks,
Sarah
You rock out loud! The hard part is knowing what you want. The rest is much easier!
ReplyDeletexo,
RJ
I think it's terrific that you're doing this to see if it takes you somewhere you may feel more fulfillment. Yay for you!
ReplyDeleteYay! That is a great thing too do. I know how you feel about the going to school and not working. I feel I am heading in that direction. But I just need to make enough to pay off what I owe and then get back on the boat with school. I really want to be a photographer and I plan on filling that dream. I think you helped things click in my head, whether you realize it or not.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing,
Cody