Sunday Citar: Lonely Nights

"I'll admit the lonely nights, rip me apart, so don't go nowhere you can't take your heart, because those nights will pass and the day will break, I hate to see you ruin your life over one mistake."

-Eric Himan "One Night Stands"

Must Be Better by Monday

 

 

  

Plus, Amoxicillin & Claritin.

All of this and I still feel too sick to function?

I've missed 3 days of work, and HAVE to be better by Monday.

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Dear So & So: Congestion Sucks

Dear Congestion,

Can we be done now please?  I'm sorry, but seeing as you're making me miss three days of work, I'm breaking out the big guns today.  Yup, that's right, headed to the store to get the Mucinex D behind the counter.   God, I hope this works.  I can't handle not being able to breath anymore.  It's miserable.

Sincerely,
Someone who's done being sick.

Dear Chas,

You are so sweet, really.  Thanks for making my best friend so happy, and for being such a nice guy to me.  Stick around a long while, k?

Signed,
The best friend of your boyfriend.

Dear Kristina,

Thanks for making last weekend so much better than the days before had been.  We seriously need more Angie/Kristina time, because it brightened my week so much more.  Thanks for being one of my very best friends.

Signed,
Me

Dear Heather & Mike,

Thanks goes to you too for helping last weekend rock!  Thank you for inviting us up to Park City to chill for a while!  :)  I love you guys.

Signed,
Me

Dear Valentine's Flowers I Bought Myself,

Thank you for staying pretty for so long!  Every time I look at you I smile.  That was a good idea.

Signed,
A self-sufficient Woman.

Dear Readers,

Sorry I'm so sick and don't have much to write, I'm weak and haven't left the couch for much the past few days.  But I seriously love you all and will be back to posting more very soon I hope!

Signed,
A grateful Blogger.

P.S. Check out Kat's for more Dear So & So goodness.

P.P.S. Also, head on over to Trendy Treehouse and participate in Follow Me Fridays!

I Love Irish Boys

Monday night, Josh and I went and saw Leap Year in the dollar theatre.  The movie is about an old Irish tradition that says a woman can propose to a man on February 29th, and he has to say yes.  So Anna (Amy Adams) decides to fly to Dublin to propose to her boyfriend Jeremy (Adam Scott) but ends up getting caught caught in a storm and stranded in Ireland.  Declan (Matthew Goode) is the hot Irish pub owner that accompanies her to Dublin and muddles up the emotions.  Typical chick flick, but I absolutely loved it!  Even Josh thought it was cute, and he's not usually into girly movies.

Why am I blogging about this movie?

Because I WANT. 

Yes, I WANT.

I want to hop on a plane and go to Ireland and find me an extremely cute Irish boy to sweep me off my feet.  

That accent gets me every time.  

♥ ♥ ♥

Anyone coming with me?

 

 

 

Jewelry Organization

So I was inspired to do this originally by Lacey over at Apartment 513 when she did her jewelry organization with Lace and dowels.  However I never got around to it, and was reminded again by Lacey over at Lacey in Love when she did her jewelry organization with a picture frame and cross stitch fabric.  I tried Lacey In Love's version (but with my own touch) and it turned out  so well!  It also looks very pretty on my wall!

    

If you're anything like me, I still have the jewelry box I was given as a little girl, so the jewelry (especially earings) pretty much look like this:

It's pretty much a pain to find anything in it, let alone earring matches.  So for the longest time I've been frustrated with it and wanting a way to keep things more organized.

What you will need to achieve one like mine:

Picture Frames
Cross Stitch Fabric
A Hot Glue Gun
Wire
Needle Nose Pliers or Jewelry Pliers
Pushpins

I was lucky I had some cheap Dollar Tree picture frames already, so I just took the glass and wood backs out and hot glued the Cross Stitch Fabric to the back.  That made it perfectly framed.

 This is the back.

This is what the front looks like.

Then I twisted the wire into little twirly hooks and threaded it through the fabric.  I like Lacey's better, but my frames weren't wood (they were plastic) so I could screw little hooks on it.  I use these hooks to hang my hoop earrings on.

Next, I sorted out all of my earrings and made sure they matched up.  If they didn't have a match, I threw them back in the drawer.  I have this idea in my head about using the ones that are missing their match in some other project, because they're still so pretty! 

Then I hung them on the wall and put the pushpins in to hang my favorite necklaces on!  It turned out so well!

RTT: More to Love & Sex Ed Bill

It's Tuesday!  So you know what that means right?  Beautiful Randomness! 

 

♥  I feel totally in love with a blog I found  yesterday, and I found it because it was featured on SITS.  It's called More To Love.  Basically, she draws these adorable illustrations of real looking women, and writes about body issues and loving yourself for who you are.  She talks about  how no one really cares about your pants size, how even Goddess' have cellulite, and many many other things.  As a girl who's struggled with weight and body issues, I highly recommend this read to anyone, and I feel inspired after having read it! 

© Elizabeth Patch 

 ☠ I am so very sick today.  What I thought were allergies yesterday, ended up being a head cold that was sneaking up on me today.  By the time I woke up this morning, I was miserable.  Please let this go away soon!

☺ Although I'm sick and "under construction" (my aunt-flo is in town, if ya know what I mean) my mood has dramatically improved from last weeks depressive madness.  I spent most of last week bawling, and curled up on the couch watching my comfort show (Grey's Anatomy) and feeling sorry for myself.  This week?  Well the sun is out and the PMS is gone, so I'm in much better spirits.  As long as the sickness and cramps don't kill me, I should be fine for a little while.

★ I made homemade Egg Rolls, Sweet & Sour Chicken, and Lettuce Wraps for dinner Sunday and then again last night.  They were so ridiculously good, that we enjoyed having them two days in a row!  I didn't take pictures (sad I know) but you can find the recipes and the original pictures over at Little Birdie Secrets!   They're seriously full of win, and I highly recommend them!

 Egg Roll Recipe

Sweet & Sour Chicken Recipe & Lettuce Wraps Recipe 

♂ The Sex Education Bill was voted down in the Utah Senate yesterday.  Here's the kicker, those bastards didn't even discuss it!  Senate Bill 54 would have modified the way sex education was taught in high schools, allowing the teachers to discuss healthy relationships, human development, and the proper uses of contraceptives; rather than Utah's "Abstinence Only" policy.   

This frustrates me because I've seen first hand (among many of my friends) that this doesn't work.  So many of my friends got pregnant in high school, because a continuous "Just don't do it!" mentality not only doesn't prevent anything, it pushes the defiant teenagers to do it.  I'm a firm believer that we should teach them that at that age they really are too young to be engaging in sexual acts, but if they do-hey here's how you use a condom so you don't have a baby or get herpes.  How hard is that?  

Basically, our conservative lawmakers didn't really discuss it, because it had the word contraceptives in it.  One lawmaker even admitted that!  They say it's the parent's job to discuss that with their children, which I agree with-except-they forget that a lot of parents aren't really doing their job.  For example; my friend's sister and brother-in-laws didn't teach their kids ANYTHING.  They're very neglectful parents (not being home for a week straight, alcoholic, etc. That's a story for a different day) and their oldest just began having sex.  When she discussed it with my friend (her aunt) and was asked if she was using protection, she said "Kind of... Sometimes at the end..." We were astounded!  My friend drove her to Planned Parenthood to get birth control, and the girl (age 19) said she would have never even known to do that.  She would have ended up with an child she couldn't take care of at her age (no job, living with the boyfriend's parents, etc.) and not only would it have changed her life, but it would have been a drain on our Welfare.  So isn't it smarter all around to teach kids that even though they probably shouldn't be doing it, how to be safe if it  happens?

Well, I'm going to end here because we're super busy at work today, and my head cold is killing me, so I've run out of random.  Head on over to Keely's and get your random on!

Let It Go; Let It Be; Let It In.

Dear Heart,
Dear Friend,
Dear Whoever Needs This,

Let it go. Those stories from your past follow you, they walk along behind you constantly whispering warnings in your listening ear.  Telling of lessons learned, and heartaches gained.  Be wary in listening.  Take it in, and let it go.  What has been, has been, and you cannot change it.  With that being the case, what is the point in regret?  Why let it ruin the beauty the future holds?

You're afraid, and you're shaking.  Can't quiet the voices in your head that tell you it might happen again... If you show your true self, will they turn in disgust and walk away?  Demons hiding deep within, if they're exposed will you lose the love you so long for?  You never know until you try, and if you don't, you will never have a chance at it.  Having it and losing it-well, that's better than never experiencing it at all, isn't it?  Even if you only have it for a little while, do you not want to taste it and savor it while it is there?  I promise you, you do.

Let go for the fear you carry, let go of the doubt, worry, and insecurity.  Just be.

Let it be.  Leave it lie there, don't poke it or scare it or try to force it to move.  You can't force things, you can't shape them into what they aren't supposed to be, and attempting to do so will only ruin their natural beauty.  If you take something with so much possibility and interfere, it may never reach full potential, and then what are you left with?  Let things be undefined and simplistic, which is how they are meant to be.  Don't complicate them with how you want them to be, and with your impatience.  Be patient.  Let it be what it is meant to be.

Let it in. Cease to block yourself off from the love those around you are offering. Open yourself up and absorb everything the world has to offer you.  It can be scary, yes, and opening yourself up to all of the good things also leaves you open and vulnerable to the negative things in life.  However, without the bad, how will you ever fully experience the good things life has to offer you?  If you never feel all the heartache and hurt, how do you know to enjoy the happiness when you have it?  How do you know not to take it for granted when life is wonderful?  It will all be worth it, every bit of bad will have been worth it when you find the happiness you've so been searching for.

You deserve to be happy, and you are the only one standing in the way of that.  Manifest your destiny, and be brave as you make your way through all of the obstacles that are between you and your objective.  These are so small compared to the greater gifts that await you at the end of your journey.  Wait for it, fight for it, and make it worth it.

Let it go; let it be, and let it in.

Sunday Citar: Writer's Friends

I love these guys, until the end of time!

Flaws and all! 

 

 Writers seldom choose as friends those self-contained characters who are never in trouble, never unhappy or ill, never make mistakes, and always count their change when it is handed to them. - Catherine Drinker Bowen

Some Getting Used To

Last night I stared at the sky

The stars were nowhere to be seen

but the hope of tomorrow night

Gave me the power to dream

But it's taking some getting used to, some getting used to

It's been too long since I've seen you

I've been doing what I've gotta do

Everyday I tell my heart

Someone is coming for you

And I hope to God

That my words tell my heart it's true

But it's taking some getting used to, some getting used to

It's been too long since I've seen you

I've been doing what I've gotta do

I wanna know the further I go

There's somethin' out there for me

I will find my place to show me

Who I'm made to be

Who I'm made to be

It's taking some getting used to, some getting used to

Well, it's taking some getting used to, some getting used to

Well, it's taking some getting used to, Some getting used to.

It's been too long since I've seen you

I've been doing what I've gotta do, what I've gotta do.

-Eric Himan "Some Getting Used To"

I've been listening to this song over and over and over again.  Perhaps repeating the words will make it sink in, will help me stop feeling the way I do.  I don't want to feel like this anymore, I don't want to feel this hopelessness that overwhelms me and suffocates me.  

I don't want to spend every night curled up on the couch watching my comfort show because I can't face the weight of the world;  because I can't face the fact that I'm alone and may always be.  The fact that I can't seem to pull myself out of this sadness is daunting, and I keep trying to rally but I can't help but feel as if I'm losing everything, and that every time I love something it will be taken away from me.  Happiness ends, and I tell myself every day that it was worth the time to have had it-to have loved and lost rather than never loved at all-but it doesn't help...  I still feel this loneliness like a knife to the chest.

I'm praying that it passes, and that I make peace with the facts that things will never be the same again, but god I miss people so damned much.  It's as if there's now a distance with all of my friends, and I never thought it would happen to those that are closest, but it is.  I feel clingy and needy, and I"m not used to it so I'll fight it.  I'm not a selfish person, I have no right to feel this way, no right to make a claim on anyone's time.

Just like the song says, it's taking some getting used to... One day I'll be used to being alone; I'll be used to everyone going off and doing their own thing with out me; I'll be used to being left behind.  Maybe when I'm used to it, it wont hurt so much and I wont feel so lost.  So I'll keep telling my heart that it wont always be like this, and perhaps someday I'll convince it.  Please God, let me convince it...

For now, I try to be positive, but the optimism has left me... Here's to brighter tomorrows.

Dear So & So: Year of the Crazy Bitches

Dear Body,

What is going on lately?  I'm always tired, no matter how much sleep I get.  The only thing I can think about doing after work is going home and falling asleep on the cozy couch, and then dragging myself into bed when it's time to actually go to bed.  Yes, I do plan on doing this tonight, because obviously you need it, but what the hell?  Really?  Maybe I'm getting sick?  Ugh.

Sincerely,
Someone who doesn't want to spend every day sleeping.


Dear Office,

It's too cold in here, my poor fingers are so frozen they can barely type.  How is that for productivity.  The thermometer says it's 68° in here, but I think it may even be colder than that.  I'm FREEZING.  Can we have a little more heat?  Just in the mornings?  Please?

Sincerely,
It might just be the sick thing, but I'm shivering!


Dear Roommate,

I miss you.  I think I'm feeling too clingly lately because I am lonely, so I know it's my own thing that I don't like being home alone all the time, so go and do your thing.  I just wanted to say I miss you when you're not here.  Thanks for always being my best friend, and I'm SOOOOOO happy for you!

Sincerely,
Someone who loves you very much!

Dear Eric Himan,


You are absolutely amazing.  I know the roommate has loved you for years, but I finally downloaded your  music from iTunes and I am completely in love!  You're writing talents are amazing, and the emotion you convey with your voice?  I'm hooked and you're getting me through a potentially rough patch right now.  Can't wait to get the rest of it!  Thanks for being so brilliant, and I'll keep listening!  Come to SLC soon!

Sincerely,
You're new fan who's hooked for life!

Dear Jon,

Change your locks, and hang out with me more often!

Signed,
That ex of yours is nuts.


Dear Carrie,

What. The. Hell?  The ex and I are still very good friends, and I was happy he found someone he really liked and that I liked you well enough to hang out with too, but are you freaking crazy like the rest of them?  I mean all I've seen on Facebook from you two lately is "I love my girlfriend so much" (He hardly ever said he loved me, and especially not publicly, so that's a big deal!) and "I love my boyfriend too!"  Also, "I had the best Valentines ever, my boyfriend is amazing!"  Then all of the sudden you talk to  your abusive ex in Oregon on the phone and  you decide you want to up and move back there to be with him?  Matt says he's ok with it, that it's ok, but you are definitely not who I thought you were.

Signed,
Someone who doesn't understand weak women who go back for more.

Dear Pothead,

Yeah, this is officially you're new nickname, because The Musician seems too endearing.  Pothead fits more anyway.  Anyway, WHY WONT YOU LET IT DIE ALREADY?  I hardly ever think about you anymore, I don't even notice when  you are or are not around, and I don't really talk about you to people anymore.  So why is it that you keep bringing stuff up?  Having your sister tell Josie not to talk to me because I "don't really know" you?  Well dude, I have you pretty well figured out, and I'm pretty sure  you don't really know you.  Maybe if you laid off the drugs a bit, you might be able to start seeing reality and not your little made up world where you never tell a lie (you even believe your own lies) and you can do nothing wrong.  Stop being the victim, stop worrying about what your exes are up to.  You kicked us out of your life with your lies and bullshit, so move the freak on!  We are!

Also, we don't spend our time talking about you.  We talk about our other dates, our social lives, and pretty much stuff that actually matters; because you don't.

Signed,
Get over it already!!!

Dear Life,

Why are you so lame lately?  I just feel bored with everything, and like there's nothing to look forward to.  Well, nothing but sleep.

Signed,
I wonder if people ever commit suicide simply because they're bored.

Dear Dating,

You suck, I'm still taking a break.

Signed,
On Hiatus.

Dear Trendy Treehouse,

Thanks for letting my participate in Follow Me Fridays!






Signed,
A New Follower! 


Dear Readers,

Thanks for taking the time to read my letters!  If you haven't noticed, I'm pretty sure The Mad Woman was right when she said on Facebook that this was the year of the "crazy bitches."  What's with these crazy women up and going back to abusive boyfriends and thinking that living together doesn't constitute a serious relationship?  Wow.  Just wow.

Also, if you want to check out the amazing talent of Eric Himan or his band Eric & the Adams (which I HIGHLY recommend) you can find him on iTunes and also at his website.  If you need to listen to a sample, I recommend by Eric & The Adams, Every Move or Frozen in the Sun.  By Eric Himan himself, I recommend Heart Clean, Tulsa, or One Night Stands.

Also, take some time to write your own letters!  You'd be amazed at how therapeutic it is!  Then link up over at Kat's and see who everyone else is writing to!

Also, check out Trendy Treehouse's Follow Me Friday!

Also, go back to yesterday's posts and see if you received either the Beautiful Heart Award or the Going Places Award, because I left them for quite a few of you!

Signed,
Me!

Two in One Day? So Awesome!

Wow, in visiting all the blogs I read this morning, I found not only one award, but two!  You people brighten my day every day with your blogs, so it's even a brighter surprise when you leave me a pretty award I can share with everyone! Thank you so much!

So here's a big thank you to Cuppycake Lies for being such a sweetie and giving me this award.  She's also an amazing blogger, so I recommend you check her out!

Please look at the last post too, as I left another award for a bunch of you! 

Instructions:

1. List 4 things that keep your inner self beautiful.

2. List 4 things that keep you physically beautiful.

3. Tell us about a precious memory you keep close to your heart. [Optional]

4. Share this award with 5 other people that you think have a beautiful heart too.

5. Link the blogs of the people you chose and link the person's blog who awarded you.

6. Have fun!

#1

How do I keep my inner self beautiful?

I spend lots of time with friends who love me for who I am.

These people are not afraid to tell me when I'm wrong, and to love me for it anyway.  I can tell them anything, and not be judged for it.  They're always there to help me, and I'm always there to help them.  My life would truly be empty without these people.

I blog, and read your blogs.

I can't begin to express how much my inner self is enriched when I blog out my feelings and check back to see your wonderful compliments.  Then I browse around and read about you guys and fall in love with each and every one of you!  ♥

I find God/Love in everything.

I've always said I can't find God in a man-made building, but the truth of the matter is you can find God in everything.  The Universe = God, so that tree, that rock, that stranger passing by-That is God.   The lyrics playing quietly in my ear right now-God.  God is love, and no matter what you believe in, that's a fact.

I am optimistic and rally around things.

My friend Kristina told me once that I rally around anything the world throws at me.  Something awful can happen, and I'll find a reason to accept it and incorporate it into my life.  I can rally around just about anything, no matter how it makes me feel.

#2

How do I keep myself physically beautiful?

I try to act confidently.

It doesn't matter what you look like, if you have confidence you're beautiful.  Confidence is sexy.

I take care of myself.

Shower regularly, take the time to pick out a nice outfit and do my hair and makeup.  So much can be said for someone who takes the time to take care of themselves.

I surround myself with beautiful people.

These people make me smile often, and brighten my life.  If you are surrounded by people who make your life beautiful, you in turn will shine a bit brighter and be more beautiful.

I keep myself beautiful inside.

I have a beautiful heart, which in turn reflects outward and makes me a beautiful person to those who matter.  

#3

A precious memory I keep close to my heart.

There are so many, it's really hard to narrow it down to just one.  A few of my most precious memories are also the most simple.  Just the other night, there was a wonderful moment when I was laying on my bed with my roommate and his boyfriend, and we were just talking.  It made me feel like I belonged, and that I always would.  The same can be said for a time when I stayed at his house last year, and I was in bed with him and our friend Angel one morning just talking.  Just those simple little moments curled up to my favorite people and talking.  It's a beautiful thing.

#4 & #5

The beautiful people I'm sharing the Award with.

 Sam @ Dawn Breaks Like a Bull Through The Hall

Angel @ Confessions of a Mad Woman

Travel & Dive Girl @ Journey & Adventure

Katie @ Katie La Vie en Paris

Miss Liss @ Above the Starlit Night 

Crazy Mom @ Aint She Crazy!  

MS @ Swimming and Floating

Blueviolet @ A Nut in a Nutshell 

Diane @ Created by Diane
Katherine @ Another Day, Another Moment 

(Shhhhhh... I broke the rule and gave it to too many people!  Oh well, you all deserve it!)

You are all so beautiful!  Thank you for everything you do! 

Oh yeah, I'm Going Places!

The sweet and wonderfully talented Travel & Dive Girl over at Journey & Adventure left me an award!  I love it!  Thanks so much, and I'm glad to know that you think I'm going places!

 

"This award means you're really going places, Baby. You'll still be blogging about your great adventures 10 years from now, and I'll still be reading them."

The Rules:

1. Link back to the blogger who gave you the award. ✖

2. Post where you'd like to be in 10 years. ✖

3. Pass it on to special bloggers. ✖

So where do I hope to be in 10 years?

I hope to have a family, and a good job, and be comfortable with my life.  I hope to still be spending regular time with those friends in my life I've become close to, and I hope to still be blogging and keeping in touch with all of you guys.  I love my blog, and it's kept me sane over the last year.  I know even in the future I'll need that touch of sanity, a place to write out my emotions, and all of your wonderful feedback to help me remember the sense of community I love so much.

So who do I think is going places? 

Honestly, so many of you are going places... But if I had to narrow it down to just a handful of blogs I expect to still be reading in 10 years, these are the ones I would pick.

Mister Frisky

Decoding My Life

Slippers & Sporks

Misadventures In Humanity 

The Adventures of Candy Grahm

Whatcha On About Girl

Lacey In Love

Loving My Children's Gifts
Cuppycake Lies

But there are so many more I love too!  You are all so amazing!

Red Velvet Cupcakes with Cream Cheese Frosting

For Valentine's Day I decided to try making Red Velvet Cupcakes, inspired by Have The Cake's February Challenge .  I snagged the recipe I found in this post, and gave it a go!

Ingredients for Cupcakes:

2 ½ cups Cake Flour (not self rising)
2 tbsp Unsweetened Cocoa Powder
1 tsp Salt
1 ½ cups Vegetable Oil
1 ½ cups Sugar
2 Eggs
1 tsp Vanilla
1 container Neon Pink Food Coloring
1 Cup Buttermilk (I used 1 ½ cups)
2 tsp White Distilled Vinegar
1 ½ tsp Baking Soda

Ingredients for Frosing:

8 oz Cream Cheese
¼ cup Butter
1 tsp Vanilla
Confectioner's Sugar

1. Preheat the oven to 350° and line two muffin pans with cupcake liners.

2.  In a bowl mix together Cake Flour, Cocoa Powder, & Salt.

3. In a separate bowl beat the Vegetable Oil and Sugar together with an electric mixer until blended.  Add the eggs in one at a time.  Beat in the Vanilla and Food Coloring.  (Yes, it's the entire bottle!)

4. Add the dry ingredients to the liquids in three batches.  With each batch add a ½ cup of buttermilk.  Mix until combined smoothly.

5.  In a separate small bowl, whisk the Baking Soda and Vinegar together.  This will be foamy.  (It reminds me of those volcanoes you make in Jr. High where you add the two together and let it foam out the top!)  Mix this into the batter until blended.

6.  Pour into cupcake liners and bake for about 20 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted comes out clean.

7.  Let it cool.

8.  Make your frosting by letting your cream cheese sit out to room temperature.  Then blend it with your Butter, and Vanilla until smooth.  Add the sugar too taste.  In the original recipe she mentioned she liked her more tart, and I completely agree.  I don't like it too sweet because I prefer to taste the cream cheese instead of the sugar.  Like Eli said "I'm a whore for cream cheese!"

I wish I had more cake tools, then I could have made the frosting prettier, instead I just spread it on (thickly) with a knife, and it looked very homemade.  They tasted fabulous and were so moist! 

RTT: Love's a Bitch, Let's Take A Break

 

Time for Random Tuesday Thoughts!

♥ So I've decided that I'm taking a break from the dating world.  Honestly, I'm tired of trying to "force it."  I'm going to focus on me, finally go buy that bike I want and try and make myself happy and whole again.  Besides, I figure it'll be when I give up on it and let it be that I'll finally find something great.

★  My friend Jon's crazy girlfriend left him yesterday.  Her excuse?  She didn't like the way he eats, said he looks like a slob.  How lame of an excuse is that?  To be fair, the girl did abandon her child, which I can't even fathom.  Anyway, apparently she thought they were in a "casual relationship" and not exclusive, so she freaked when he told her he loved  her.  News flash-You don't move in with someone (one bedroom apartment none-the-less) if you're just in a casual relationship.

☀ Mamarazzi's Swap is coming up!  I love this thing, and I'm sooooo excited!  Go play along, and get a lovely package in the mail while brightening someone else's day.

☛ Also, if you haven't read about my super-fun Valentine's day, GO DO IT! 

☯ I love my friends SOOOOO much.  Every day spent with them is a gift.  Last night Josh and I took Chinese food over to Jon's to cheer him up, and even though he was kind of sad (and I don't like that part) I had a really awesome time hanging out with them both.  I'm feeling very lovey right now, and I just want them both to know how much I appreciate them.  Thanks for being so much to me guys!

✈ My friend Cristín told me she might be getting me a buddy pass to travel with her this summer!  That would be sooooo awesome!  Only like $400 round trip.  I need to get my passport.

♠ Also, I'm off of my Verbal Warning (for attendance at work) on the 18th.  Finally!  I've made it 60 days keeping my nose fairly down, and now I wont have to stress quite so much about it!

☢ Something funny-The Mango (a.k.a Cunty McCunterson from previous letters) left a V-day gift for the Musician that one guy screwing everyone in the office's ex girlfriend of 7 years.  You know, the one she screwed over by playing friends and then sleeping with the guy she was in love with.  The ex was shocked, we laughed and told her she should just give it back.  She didn't, she just chucked it.

☣ Also, said man in question ↑ isn't cut out for internet dating because he can't talk to a girl for that long.  FUNNY!  Roommate clarified, he said it really means "he can't talk to a girl that long without getting laid."  Sound's about right.

 ☮ It's all good though.  I read a funny funny funny SUPER FUNNY post about alternate greeting cards for Valentine's Day over at Journey & Adventure.  The one that fits the most for me is  

❝ As the days go by I think of how lucky I am, that you're not here to ruin it for me.❞

♈ My birthday is in 2 months!  I'm super super psyched!

♬ My absolute favorite song right now is Cosmic Love by Florence + The Machine.  My status message yesterday read: 

I heard your heart beating, 

you were in the darkness too, 

so I stayed in the darkness with you...

♬ Those are lyrics from it, which you can check out here.  Go Youtube the song, I'd post it but work doesn't allow Youtube.

✘ This is special.

✔ And so is the Vagina Mouse. 

Favorite Things Swap!

Mamarazzi's having her Favorite Things Swap!  I am SO EXCITED!  It was so much fun when I did it, and I made an awesome blogger friend through it! 

So if you want to play along, go check it out!

Valentines Day is So Much Better with Friends!

Being that we both are were single (and a touch bitter), the roommate and I decided to throw a big Singles Awareness Day party at our place this year and invite all of our friends.  We even told the coupled up ones they could come, but that they would have be open to being made fun of for the evening.  However, a week before the party he finally gives his number to (I was kind of pushing him to) the hot mechanic that he's had a crush on since he was a child.  Voila, Josh is in a relationship, and I can't be happier for him.  He asked me if he'd get made fun of now at the party, but I think he really deserves this so I figured he could have a pass.

Eli, Megan and Me.

So as the party got started, I twittered the following: This Singles Awareness Party is quickly turning into an "Angie's the 5th wheel" party.  As I was sitting in my room with Josh and his boyfriend, and our friends Jon and Sharla.  All of whom I love.  Soon after Megan and Eli showed up, and I wasn't the only single person in the room.  It's always really good to see Eli, but I'm not sure about Megan... I loved her the first time I met her, but I guess I just don't know her well enough to make an actual opinion, and to-be-fair she was really sick.  I'd be cranky if I were sick too.

Megan looking cute, and Eli giving "a look".

Eli making faces.

Tori and Steve stopped by for a little while, and it was really good to hang out with them outside of work.  I really loved getting to know them on a more personal basis.  Also, I made the room take a vote on how hot Tori is, and we talked about how much we complete each other.  Tori's totally my woman crush.

Cristina showed up for a little while, which is really good!  It's extremely lame that we live like 10 minutes from each other and have been friends since I was 7, and haven't seen each other in over a year!  We're getting together on Wednesday to catch up, and hopefully we wont let another year go by before seeing each other.

Kirsten and Mary.

Kirsten and Mary showed up, and we broke out the Karaoke soon after that.  We had a good time singing along, and everyone got into watching, even if they weren't singing!

The party!  Josh and Chaz watching Karaoke, Jon singing, Sharla sitting at his feet, Mary, and Kirsten making funny faces!

I had so much fun with these guys!  Mary and Kirsten gave me lots of cuddles on the couch, because they wanted to make sure I didn't feel lonely on Valentine's, and I am really glad they did.  I sure like cuddles!  Not to mention I am a very lovey drunk, and boy did I get drunk! Chaz brought Hot Damn, and I recommended we go grab Peppermint Schnapps so we could do Fire and Ice shots.  Except little old  me, who kept asking people to take a shot with me, and who was not about to be outdone by anyone (which I should have left that to the more experienced drinkers but didn't) forgot that the alcohol that tasted like a girly cinnamon and peppermint drink, was 100 proof.  Bad idea.

Chaz was my drinking buddy, and at one point in the kitchen, I hugged Chaz and told him "I love you for making my Josh so happy." He replied "Love is a very strong word."  To which I said "Yeah, but it's a friend love and it's good to see Josh happy."  He simply said "Ok, I love you too."  The rest of the night he kept reminding me that he had a spare bedroom... You could see his gears turning.

I have to admit that my favorite part of the evening was after everyone left.  Not because they weren't fun, because they were sooooo much, but it was the simplicity of a moment shared after.  Chaz, Josh and I stumbled into my bedroom and fell onto the bed.  Josh in the middle with me on one side cuddling him, and Chaz on the other.  We laid there and talked, and Chaz reached over and very sweetly took my glasses off of me, and it was such a wonderful feeling to feel included.  I'd been worried about losing my friend, and I'd been a little jealous, but all of that was washed away as I totally fell in love with Chaz and the way he makes my best friend feel. 

Chaz and Josh, aren't they so cute together?

It's good to know there is room for me still, and when Josh and I talked about it and I told him it had been my favorite moment he said it was his too.  He said "It was great to be wrapped around my two favorite people!" and he thinks it's great that I like Chaz so much, and that Chaz made such an effort to be my friend.  I'm so glad I don't have to grow apart from my best friend, because he really is the person I feel closest to in the entire world.

They also took care of me when all of those shots hit me and I spent the next three hours making good friends with the toilet.  Not fun.  Sunday was spent nursing a foul hangover (my first ever hangover!) but the day was worth it because I got to spend it bonding with my best friend.  Josh and I watched some movies, had yummy Betos burritos and spent a good day talking about everything.  I love him so much, and I feel so good that his life is taking this positive turn.

My valentines day turned out to be one of the best I've ever had, even if I was single through the whole thing.  It's hard to be lonely when you have so many wonderful people around you!  I love them all so much, and will be forever grateful for the difference they make in my life.

How was your Valentines/Singles Awareness Day?

Gong Hey Fat Choy

新年快樂

Gong Hey Fat Choy 

(Happy Chinese New Year) 

Welcome Year of the Tiger!

Good-riddence-bye year of the Ox!

The year of the Ox predicted it would be very unfavorable for me (and a lot of people) and boy was it right!  I spent a great 5 months unemployed, I failed at every relationship I attempted, and had a generally rough time financially.  

That's not saying there weren't any good things that happened.  I made a bunch of really great new friends, moved in with my very best friend, and fell completely in love with my blog and the blogs of those I read.  Those were all very good things that happened to me last year.

Tigers are my very favorite animal EVER.

Also, I'm a tiger sign; this is MY year!

Soooo...

What's my prediction?

41%

3 favorable months

1 neutral month

8 unfavorable months

 

WTF?

How can it be MY year and still be so very unfavorable for me?

That doesn't make any sense.  I wont stand for it.

Apparently I'll find this year more comfortable than most, but may find myself with "too much of a good thing." It says I'm likely to overdo it on extremes. Whaaa?  How can you have too much of a good thing?  I think after the crap I was handed last year, I deserve some good things!

The predictions do say that personal relationships will be my strongest suit this year, and I certainly hope so!  I'm ready for something real, and I'm really hoping this year brings some good love!  Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Career should bring me lots of new opportunities as long as I learn to ask for help and practice self control.  Also, the reading says I should see an increase in wealth this year, which would be very much welcomed!

 

 

It does say my health is supposed to suffer due to exhaustion because I might push myself too far... I'll have to keep that in mind.   I "should benefit psychologically from new beginnings" which is exciting.  

Who knows if any of this is true, but I'm hoping it will be going to make it a good year!

I can make it through anything as long as I have some good friends around me!

So Happy Chinese New Year everyone, I hope your years will be as splendid as I'm planning on mine being!

XoXoXo