Good Enough

I love Evanescence, and in watching some of their music videos again recently, this one resonated with me.

At this point in my life, I do feel good enough. I don't feel the need to be chasing after something I can't have, or hanging onto something that never truly was... It seems I spent a great deal of this last year doing just those things.

I fell in love twice this year, and was burnt by those feelings on both occasions. However, I wouldn't trade them for the world. These last few months have led to so much growth on my end, and I wouldn't be feeling "good enough" now, if I hadn't felt inadequate quite a bit in the past. I felt the inadequacy of not being enough for them, of not being what they wanted or needed at the time, and of not being able to let go and move on from those feelings.

Today, I feel more than adequate in how I am living, and I feel comfortable with my life right now. I've moved past the hell my love-life has been this year, and I've learned so much from it. At this time, I do not feel the need to pursue a serious relationship or fall in love again. It will happen when it happens, and I may or may not be scarred in the process, but if that happens I will learn something more from it. That's the beauty of failure; it teaches you how to better succeed next time.

I'm just living and breathing. That's all that can be asked of me, and that's all I'm focused on right now. I have a good job that I enjoy, I have friends and family I love, companionship when I need it, a roof over my head, and I'm surviving and thriving. What more could you ask for?

The only person I have to be good enough for is myself. I'm the only one that truly matters when it comes to living up to expectations, and anyone who truly matters will love me and accept me for what I am, everyone else can politely excuse themselves.

I am good enough.