Saturday night, after the kids were put to bed we were supposed to have a bunch of friends over to watch movies, but they all bailed but Josh. No biggie though, we had a good time and he's enough company for me! ;)
On Sunday, I got a huge surprise via voicemail. [Womanizer], whom I know I've mentioned that he was coming home on the 20th, called me and I missed it. His voicemail said he was home already, and I dropped the phone. The shock was huge, because I thought there would be a few more weeks for me to get ready for it and figure out what I want. At first I really stressed about it, because I'm not sure I want to have a serious relationship yet, because I'm having so much fun with my friends and dating around right now.
I've had a friend or two express their worry about when other friends get into a relationship, their single friends stop seeing them as much or at all. They tend to disappear, and I worried about that too, because I love my friends more than you can possibly imagine. However, I don't' see why I should have to give any of that up at all. I'm going to do my best to merge those relationships, so they become his friends too! Besides, look at Ken and Kristina, they do really well at maintaining friendships and they have been married 5 years with 2 small children...
Anyways, after thinking about this a lot, and coming to the conclusion that I'm pretty sure I don't really have to sacrifice much and that I can maintain close friendships, I feel a lot more calm about it all now. That doesn't mean I'm rushing right into a commitment, I'm still going to take things slow and just let things take their natural course... No rushing, no blocking, just go with the flow and see where I end up... Should be fun! As for those friends that worry, I'll just have to prove their fears wrong, and show them that I'm still there just like before! :)
So, [womanizer] is supposed to be coming up either tonight or tomorrow... I'm a little nervous! I don't think I'll really believe he's here until I see him once or twice!